I don't have a "one that got away".
I don't have someone that I regret leaving, or someone I wish I could go back to.
There is no one I'd take back in a heartbeat given the chance. Quite honestly, I applaud myself on that. I have no regrets. I look at my past relationships as lessons learned, not as some big mistake I wish I could take back.
I have a trail of "I got away"s.
People who were bad for me. People who hurt me. People who were great, but just didn't fit into my life the right way. People I can look at now and tell you exactly what they taught me about relationships and what I want and life.
Someone once told me that dating was like cheating on your husband. I literally laughed in their face. That might work for some people, but not for me. I'm a trial and error kind of girl. I fall so hard so freakin fast that the first guy who asked me out would have to be my husband. I am so unrealistically picky that there is no way I could know if I wanted to marry someone unless I dated them.
In my eyes, relationships are learning curves. If I hadn't dated the people I have, I wouldn't know so much about myself. I wouldn't know that I have a hang up on saying "I love you" before you mean it. I wouldn't know that I have to find someone who takes relationships slow. I wouldn't know that talking about the future early on scares the crap out of me. I wouldn't know you really can break up with someone and remain friends. I wouldn't know that when you try and morph a friendship into a relationship before it's ready, it won't last. I wouldn't know not to settle.
My relationships have taught me so much about myself and about the world that I don't regret a single one. Not the ones that ended in an ugly, brutal fight or the ones that were a smooth, clean break.
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